1 year ago, I went to LA to watch the Academy Awards via Seattle in late Feb 2012. I thought I would like to die. The reason why I thought I would like to die, I write the details on my website. Gradually weariness grew upon me... I sent and uploaded a picture with grip-and gran which I was at Kodak Theater to friend of mine. After for a while, I got an e-mail from my friend. I was surprised and shocked by his reply because he was worried about me and I felt he seemed to see my thought in depth of my mind. I was so sad when I read his message. Nevertheless, I was always face to face with shadow of death while I was in LA. But the place, LA was not my place... I went back to Seattle with the shadow. Seattle is my favorite place in my life. I had decided to make a final decision when I was back to Seattle.
Contrary to what my thinks, the weather was very clear & Mt. Rainier was amazingly beautiful when I arrived at Seattle. It seemed to celebrate my arrival. I was tearing. I tried to keep thinking good, but it won't last long. I always struggle with strange feelings for a while.
A few days later, I went to University of Washington. It was 150th Anniversary year at the time and it also 17th Anniversary year for me. It was so cold and cloudy day. Having took a walk for a while in UW, "Never give up", it went through my head when I saw breaking buds of Cherry blossom in winter days..
In addition, I got a Dove Chocolate from Swedish gentleman on the bus after the Boeing Factory Tour in the next day. It says "Laugh whenever possible" on the chocolate wrapper. He nodded and smiled for me. I felt he also seemed to read my mind.
Chance or Necessity?
I think it was unlikely to be coincidental incident. Everything was getting toward to something without knowing at that time. But I didn't still have emotional leeway...
However, I had kept the wrapper in my wallet to encourage me when I was sad...
Laugh whenever possible
What a great word!
Thanks Dove & Swedish gentleman!
Contrary to what my thinks, the weather was very clear & Mt. Rainier was amazingly beautiful when I arrived at Seattle. It seemed to celebrate my arrival. I was tearing. I tried to keep thinking good, but it won't last long. I always struggle with strange feelings for a while.
A few days later, I went to University of Washington. It was 150th Anniversary year at the time and it also 17th Anniversary year for me. It was so cold and cloudy day. Having took a walk for a while in UW, "Never give up", it went through my head when I saw breaking buds of Cherry blossom in winter days..
In addition, I got a Dove Chocolate from Swedish gentleman on the bus after the Boeing Factory Tour in the next day. It says "Laugh whenever possible" on the chocolate wrapper. He nodded and smiled for me. I felt he also seemed to read my mind.
Chance or Necessity?
I think it was unlikely to be coincidental incident. Everything was getting toward to something without knowing at that time. But I didn't still have emotional leeway...
However, I had kept the wrapper in my wallet to encourage me when I was sad...
Laugh whenever possible
What a great word!
Thanks Dove & Swedish gentleman!
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